For a long time, I debated on how best to start this post. I couldn’t precisely think what to post out of the blue. It’s more prudent to begin this way – and I also owe it to my loyal readers (and new ones! Hi & thank you, dil se). I was on an unplanned hiatus longer than expected, getting more comfortable with journaling – which is not something I have previously committed to the way I am now. Ironically, the idea that propelled my foray into scribble therapy, was the fact that to continue my writing – I must practise it every day. Whatever it may be, the more I write, the more it will help with my expression. The only downside to this is that I haven’t been able to find a reason to blog publically as opposed to journaling for myself. I don’t blog under an alias – nor have I ever wanted to, but the personal freedom that I get in an uninhibited space is a high that I keep going back to. It’s a place that has no assumptions, judgements or criticisms. There’s only compassion and acceptance. I’ve only ever received support on my platform, and for that I’m ever-grateful, but what you read is usually filtered. It is when I have reached a conclusion, or when I discovered the silver lining to my story. The perfectionist in me is not comfortable with an open ended post –
an unresolved dilemma. – and hence I just kept finding it easier to go back to a space where even my jumbled thoughts would find a place to be heard and accepted as is. (The lack of finesse in this post probably gives you an idea).
But. Well. I missed blogging. I’ve never explicitly said why I started this, but my blog was born out of a difficult circumstance in my life. This was my creative outlet and I held on to it. Continuing this is also a reminder to myself of the patience that took me through that, as well as the hard work it takes to see a commitment through.
With this, I’m going to try my best to post regularly – and hopefully with something of a bigger takeaway than this scattered explanation of my absence.
A big internet hug to you, dear reader, for reaching this line – because it’s always nice to know of those who will stay by you until the end.