Disclaimer: I realise its a Saturday. Don’t point out the obvious, we all make mistakes.
HELLO, Friday. It’s been a while.
Although the original purpose of this series’ was something else in my mind, I realise that it progresses and shifts as though it has a mind of its own. And I’m okay with surprising myself (and you, dear reader). I feel like this is a free, fun space, but at the same time, is also a place to collect life’s seemingly inconsequential moments that I would otherwise not recall. But that’s the beauty of blogging. You always have a record.
This month brought with it a tumultuous change in my life, one that had absolutely no logical way of occurring had it not been for the mysterious ways that God’s plans work. Things are as good as they are bad, and after the initial stage of being in a state of turmoil and potential despair at the outcome, I realised that maybe I was being taught how to let go. I was being taught to submit. I was being taught how to say a prayer and let go of any emotional attachment to its answer. Obsessing over my desired outcome is impractical because I have a limited control over life’s circumstances. But I can discipline my emotions – I have to allow the wave to pass through, without drowning in it.
I’m also learning that sometimes it takes us the answer of our prayers itself to realise that we’re lacking something fundamental in our own lives. To put it in a simple analogy, it’s like wishing you’d be one of the wealthiest people in the world – actually achieving that title – and then realising that the trade-off to getting there had been lesser time for your family – and most importantly, yourself. (A bit of a dramatic juxtaposition, but you get the point, oui?)
I had a sit down with myself and thought of some things I was grateful for this week:
– A conversation with someone whom I cant classify as either a friend or an acquaintance, but whom I’ve known a while. You know the good kind of people in life? You’re not close, but you’ll always have their best interests at heart, simply because of the kind human being they are.
– Being published at The Tempest. I don’t know a better platform for the kind of article I wrote. It was something close to my heart, and a difficult one to word appropriately. You can read it here. I’d love to know your thoughts.
– I am blown away at how therapeutic journalling can be. I’ve started understanding how my handwriting alters depending on my mood.
– Realising in full capacity how Allah (swt) takes care of your affairs.
Thank you for joining me on recounting some of the little things in life.
Hope you have/had a brilliant weekend.